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Do you stay up until midnight on New Year's Eve? Do you make New Year's resolutions? Do you stick to them? What are your resolutions this year?

I used to stay up until midnight every New Year's Eve. DH worked at a fancy restaurant that held a big dinner with several courses and balloons falling from the ceiling when the ball dropped. I'd drag my tired self to the restaurant for the Midnight Kiss, then go home and go to bed. He'd come home a lot later.

Now that DH works in real estate and not restaurants, we spend New Year's Eve together but usually we're asleep. This New Year's Eve we got home from our Christmas Vacation at 6:45 pm, by 7:00 we were at our neighbor's enjoying some wine and bruschetta, then an incredible grilled NY strip and shrimp sauteed with lots of garlic butter, risotto, and fresh corn with asparagus, finished off with Special Dark s'mores and a glass of bubbly. I was in bed by 10:30 and sound asleep when the New Year crept in.

I rarely make New Year's resolutions because I believe you can improve the way you live any of the 365 days of the year. But something about January 1st feels fresh and relaxed, introspective and forward-facing. So I usually do resolve, something quiet and small, all to myself. But this year I'll share. This year I won't let the moments slip away... not only do I hope to be mindful of where I am, who I'm with, and how I'm feeling, I hope to remember those moments. I have a notoriously bad memory, so I hope to spend time recording and documenting. And keeping in touch with those, family and friends, who can bring my memories to life. I'll do my best to keep this one, reach out for the help I need, overcome my fear of creativity, and fill all those blank books I've collected over the years.


Joe said…
Beautiful post.

I made a bunch of filthy new year's resolution, which caused a lot of laughter.

I intend to live up to them.

Keep it real, Shy Smiley. I like reading your blog
shy_smiley said…
Thanks, Joe. I like comparing the way I look on a skateboard to the way you look on skis.

Happy New Year!
Ana said…
So, I'd share my New Year's Resolutions with you, except it's January 2nd and I've already broken all of them!
So, this year I resolve to have some resolve, for Pete's sake!

Love this blog, Beck.
Best of luck makin' yours come true. You can do it.

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